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Welcome to WritingOne3583

Welcome, and thanks for stopping by! I feel drawn to having an outlet for myself to write about things that interest, bother, confuse, or inspire me. I wrote many short stories and letters as a child, kept a diary as a teenager, and have written several poems, as well. I find writing cathartic, and it’s one of the few things I believe I do with some level of skill (but that’s for you to decide). My blog topics will most likely be varied and a bit “all over the place”. I hope you enjoy the content and can relate or at least get a chuckle every once in a while out of my latest writing project. If no one reads my blog, it will just be an online journal, which is fine, as well. Regardless, I am going to strive to be as honest as possible and only write what’s on my mind and heart. Ttys!

Anger

I’ve written about anger before, but feel the urge to do so again. It’s amazing the immediate release I feel when I make my anger trigger deeper introspection instead of just more blind rage. It feels like such a triumph to pinpoint the emotion my anger is concealing and calmly confront myself with the knowledge that there’s more going on than me just being angry. And, weirdly, considering those deeper emotions and their origins usually makes me feel calmer. It’s as though my inner self is telling me I need to do the hard work of learning to become self-aware before I can ever find peace or contentment.

I notice I often excuse my anger as righteous. If I am angry about an injustice, I feel justified in allowing myself the anger. However, anger itself is not helpful. Logical thinking, planning, and knowledge are more helpful to foster positive change than pure anger. Anger is disempowering, chaotic, and counterproductive, while self-awareness is empowering, peace-inducing, and change-making.

The Number of Friends You Have Doesn’t Define You

I’ve been thinking about how often we use someone’s popularity to ascribe to them the level of worth we believe they deserve. As I have gotten older I find it harder to make and maintain friendships. I prioritize similar values much more highly than other traits and characteristics, such as similar hobbies, appearance, or even personality. I also suffer from social and generalized anxiety.

Do you struggle with making or keeping friends and perhaps relate to some of what I’ve written here? I would love to hear others’ thoughts on this topic.

Boundaries

I know I’ve written about boundaries before. I feel it’s such an important topic. Having strong, healthy boundaries is often the difference between staying true to yourself or going “whichever way the wind blows.” There are many different types of boundaries.

Physical boundaries can include who you let in your home or who you let touch you. Time boundaries determine how much time you’re willing to spend on a given activity. We all only have so much time and in order to decide how to spend it, some things must be sacrificed. Emotional boundaries can include not spending time around toxic people or limiting the amount of time you spend around them. It can also include protecting yourself from triggers. Sexual boundaries include determining which sexual activities you engage in, when, where, and with whom. Financial boundaries can include not spending more than a certain amount on eating out monthly, requiring a certain salary before accepting a job, or not loaning money. Material boundaries can include not owning a lot of stuff, minimizing stuff so that it doesn’t create an unnecessary burden or so that your priorities do not become skewed. Intellectual boundaries can include refusal to believe something without evidence or not holding a certain position just because your friends and family do.

I often have trouble with striking a balance and maintaining healthy, not rigid or porous boundaries — speaking up for myself and saying “no” when need be, while allowing wiggle room for exceptions. But I am working on it.

Finding Out Who I Am

I have realized I need to stop trying to “find out who I am.” This expression is overly dramatic, as well as scary, in my opinion. To be disconnected from myself is a terrifying feeling. In reality, I already have myself. I do not need to find myself. I am myself. I think spending time in nature and staying busy doing the things I enjoy will help me learn more about myself. I feel like I create myself little by little, and more puzzle pieces start falling in place. How are you creating yourself?

Soulmates

I don’t believe in the concept of “soulmates,” and believe it to be an inherently self-defeating concept and unreachable standard. I think about how many people have multiple happy marriages and how many people agonize over not finding “the One.” I believe you’re lucky to find someone who aligns with your values and your personality, and who understands how to engage in healthy conflict. The idea of “soulmates” seems metaphysical and borne of religion. You can go your entire life wondering if your partner is “the One,” constantly comparing them to an abstract you hold in your head, without appreciating them for who they are and how they complement your life. Not feeling as though you’ve met your “soulmate”, you’re bound to feel like a failure. Does anybody else agree or have a different perspective they’d like to share?

Subconscious Influence and Its Role in Desire and Decision-Making

I’ve been thinking about subconscious influence and how it covertly affects the decisions I make. For example, for those of you who wear make-up, do you ever ask yourselves why you wear it? I started wearing make-up as a teenager to hide acne and redness. I continued to wear it regularly throughout my early 20’s. I didn’t necessarily see it as fun or as creative expression. I felt I had to wear it to be socially acceptable. I think a lot of women believe it is their own choice to wear make-up without realizing our choices and preferences are not created in a vacuum. Even if we don’t realize it, we are subconsciously being pushed towards certain values and standards and away from others. It’s just something I try to be aware of. Today, I wear lip color from time to time when I feel like it but no face make-up. I don’t like the feeling I am wearing a mask or covering up my own skin. Make-up has also started to irritate my eyes and skin and I just don’t really have the motivation to try mineral make-up. The older I get, the less I care about such things. When it comes to other issues, whether it be my hair, jewelry, the clothes and shoes I wear, or something else, I try to think critically about why I make the choices o make and if they are internally or externally-motivated. What are your thoughts on this topic?

Choices

Is anybody else ever saddened by the fact that by the choices you make and opportunities you take, you’re by default losing out on other choices and opportunities? That it’s impossible to live in or even visit all the countries that exist, meet people from every cultural group (some countries having a very large number of subcultures), learn all the world’s languages, work all the types of jobs you want to try out, take all the courses you want to take, obtain an in-depth knowledge of all the topics that interest you, have all the experiences you want? To me, this realization is crushing.

What Do You Like About Yourself?

I find it easy to dwell on the things I don’t like about myself. However, when I consider my qualities and the things I believe I do well, I find several positive things to say about myself. For example, I am passionate, I’m a good writer, I love to learn, I’m a critical thinker, I’m willing to admit when I’m wrong, I’m hardworking, I’m loyal, I’m creative, I’m organized, I help others, and I never give up.

What are some traits about yourselves that you admire?

Are Your Goals Your Own?

I’m realizing how easy it is to delude yourself into believing that your goals are your own. Most goals come down to one thing — pleasing others, fitting in, checking off boxes. Do your goals excite you? Are they in line with who you are? Do they honor your interests, strengths, and values? If not, examine them critically to ensure they are not interlopers, others’ goals for you masquerading themselves as your own. I’m currently working on this.

My Favorite YouTube Channels

Are there any YouTube channels you guys like to follow? I enjoy a broad range and have some favorites. Without further ado, they are:

VagabondSteve — Steve is a life coach who has been making videos for about 13 years. I’ve been watching him since 2010 and really appreciate his wisdom, insight, and worldview.

Special Books by Special Kids — This channel is run by Chris Ulmer, a former special education teacher. He posts interviews he conducts with people who have a variety of disorders and diseases.

ASMRrequests — I’ve been watching Ally since 2013, when I first was introduced to ASMR. She was one of the first ASMRtists and obviously puts a lot of time and effort into her videos and the results are amazing. While she hasn’t posted in over a year, there are plenty of videos on her channel to enjoy.

Exploring Alternatives — This channel is run by Mat and Danielle and features “people who are living in tiny houses, vans, RV’s, and boats; and people who are exploring long-term travel, minimalism, zero waste living, off-grid living, and more.” An intriguing and inspiring look into the ways other people live and the possibilities for change.

Kirsten Dirksen — Similar to the last channel, here you’ll find featured “videos about simple living, self- sufficiency, small (and tiny) homes, backyard gardens (and livestock), alternative transport, DIY, craftsmanship, and philosophies of life.”

Soft White Underbelly — photographer Mark Laita conducts interviews with people who are often ignored, shunned, and/or misunderstood by society, such as prostitutes, pimps, drug addicts, white collar criminals, homeless people, transgender people, Appalachian Mountain dwellers, gang members, and others.

Pursuit of Wonder — This channel’s purpose, as the name suggests, is to spark wonder, broaden people’s minds, and advocate for positive mental health.

Button Poetry — I really enjoy slam poetry/spoken word poetry. If you do, too, this channel has consistently high-quality offerings from some very talented artists.

JCS – Criminal Psychology — This channel offers police interrogation videos of the accused in custody, edited with narrative overlaid by the channel owner. This allows for insight into the forensic psychology techniques and theories at play, offering context and understanding beyond what is happening on the surface. Very gripping content.

Modern History TV — Jason Kingsley, the “Modern Knight”, examines in-depth what it was like to live in the Middle Ages.

Townsends — This eponymous channel covers everything Colonial America-related. The Townsend family has a store in Indiana that carries replicas of common Colonial America items, and they started making related YouTube videos in 2008. The channel includes a lot of recipes as well as re-enactments.

CheapRVLiving — Bob Wells posts videos on vehicle living and nomadic lifestyles, including reviewing products and conducting interviews with fellow vehicle-dwellers.

Better Ideas — This channel posts videos on mental health and self-improvement topics. The editing is top-notch and the videos thought-provoking.

I’d love to hear who your favorite Youtubers are and why you love them!